I'm drenched in my fears, but I ain't giving up.
Back against the wall, but I don't give a fxck.
I ain't nothing like you, I ain't ever stuck.
I'm hustling til I'm dead and gone and my time is really up.
If I looked like what I been through? I'd look like hell.
But I'm fxcking gorgeous. So I feel myself.
All I got is my health, even that is temporary.
Intensely scary, am I doing this shit the right way?
And I like pay, but my pay is slipping.
I'm a mystery and I don't like attention.
I'm a dropout and I forgot to mention -
that I'm stressed, stretching myself thin.
Mom's telling me "new career" and I ain't new to fear.
It's a familiar face.
I don't wanna disgrace my friends and fam.
That's why I'm here, in the first place.
I ain't really had no options, lots of losses in the past too.
As a lesson? I got tattooed that love is sacrifice.
I ain't listening to bosses, from all the shit that I've gone through?
Shit that would really haunt you? Rather gamble with these dice.
And put my fate in my own hands and put on for my Nomadz.
Hustle til I'm lifeless, all I'm wanting is more cash.
& it's so trash, that I'm overlooked and seen past.
While the weak thrive, take a good hard look into these eyes?
& know the pain of this street life.
- Verse 2
I've had love leave me behind, watch my friends turn new foes.
Holes all in my new clothes. No solid path or direction.
Left behind to suffer. Mocked by my own brethren.
Fear holding me back, lock me down like detentions.
& I'm so scared of being homeless and broke with no paper son.
So swamped with these fear I need, a way out and I'm making one.
All I need is a chance. If I see one? Then I'm taking one.
& if the heads don't turn?
Then we take the necks and we breaking one.
These other niggas being fake for fun.
All I've known is struggle fam.
Throwing down these shows and my crowds got no fxckin fans.
It's a fxcking scam. All this work and home work and known dirt.
My own work is what I got to do, but they'd rather watch the throne first.
Reality makes my soul hurt.
But my purpose here's to suffer.
So I can find the happiness that's hiding undercover.
So it's fxck you to ex-lovers and frienemies and enemies.
& fxck all of these fears - I won't let them be the end of me.
from T.O. Noire,
released November 14, 2014
Produced by Avidd